these are the thoughts that go through my head in my these are the thoughts that go through my head in my estos son los pensamientos que pasan por mi cabeza en mi backyard on a Sunday afternoon when I have the house to backyard on a Sunday afternoon when I have the house to patio en una tarde de domingo, cuando tengo la casa para myself and i'm not expending all that energy on fighting with myself and i'm not expending all that energy on fighting with y yo no estoy gastando toda esa energía en combatir con my boyfriend my boyfriend mi novio is he the one that I will marry? why is it so hard to be is he the one that I will marry? why is it so hard to be es él el que me voy a casar? por qué es tan difícil ser objective about myself? why do I feel cellularly alone? am I objective about myself? why do I feel cellularly alone? am I objetiva acerca de mí mismo? ¿por qué siento celularmente solo? soy yo supposed to live in this crazy city? can blindly continued fear- supposed to live in this crazy city? can blindly continued fear- supone que vivimos en esta ciudad loca? ciegamente puede continuar en el miedo induced regurgitated life-denying tradition be overcome? induced regurgitated life-denying tradition be overcome? inducida por la tradición regurgitado vida negando que superar? where does the money go that I send to those in need? if we where does the money go that I send to those in need? if we donde va el dinero que envío a los necesitados? si have so much why do some people have nothing still? why do I have so much why do some people have nothing still? why do I tienen tanto ¿por qué algunas personas no tienen nada todavía? ¿por qué feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning? why do you feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning? why do you se sienten desesperados cuando despierta en la mañana? por qué hace say you are spiritual yet you treat people like shit? say you are spiritual yet you treat people like shit? dice que es espiritual pero que tratan a la gente como una mierda? how can you say you're close to god and yet you talk behind how can you say you're close to god and yet you talk behind ¿cómo puedes decir que estás cerca de Dios y, sin embargo usted habla detrás my back as though I am not a part of you? why do I say I'm fine my back as though I am not a part of you? why do I say I'm fine mi espalda como si yo no soy parte de ti? ¿por qué digo que estoy bien when it's obvious I'm not? why's it so hard to tell you when it's obvious I'm not? why's it so hard to tell you cuando es obvio que no soy? por qué es tan difícil decir what I want? why can't you just read my mind? what I want? why can't you just read my mind? lo que quiero? ¿por qué no puede usted acaba de leer mi mente? why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen? why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen? ¿por qué me temo que una zona tranquila, yo soy el menos se va a escuchar? why do I care whether you like me or not? why is it so hard why do I care whether you like me or not? why is it so hard ¿por qué me importa si le gusta o no? ¿Por qué es tan difícil for me to be angry? why is it such work to stay conscious and for me to be angry? why is it such work to stay conscious and para mí estar enojado? por qué es que ese trabajo es permanecer consciente y so easy to get stuck and not the other way around? so easy to get stuck and not the other way around? tan fácil quedarse atascado y no al revés? will I ever move back to canada? can I be with a lover with will I ever move back to canada? can I be with a lover with ¿alguna vez regresar a Canadá? puedo estar con un amante con whom I am a student and a master? why am I encouraged to whom I am a student and a master? why am I encouraged to que yo soy un estudiante y un maestro? ¿por qué me anima a shut my mouth when it gets too close to home? why cannot I shut my mouth when it gets too close to home? why cannot I Cerré la boca cuando se pone demasiado cerca de casa? ¿Por qué no puedo live in the moment? live in the moment? vivir el momento?