Try to understand this

Sometimes I fell like screaming
Sometimes life is like a dream
Each day new chance of changing
Changing my point of view

Getting all I ever wanted
Loosing all I ever had
And I'm waiting for a warning
A warning to bring down my head

Chorus:
And I'll try to bring my mind
Back to the place it was
To find my self again
And get back all I lost
I need a helping hand
And you don't understand
The price that all have cost
I'll get back all I lost

Too many problems too much trouble
To many things to think about
I want everything to blow up
And I want to be without(???)

I wonder why I'm feeling down
If there is someone like me
Maybe I never find the answer
In fact, what am I looking for?( what the hell is this???)

Chorus

Everybody wants to change me
But I don't give a dame about
So if you think that I'm a looser
I completely agree with you(???)