Happiness iss something I can't afford
The last bit I had curled up and died
Swelling in my brain I hope it explodes
These thoughts, I can't forget

I pray to the God I know does not exist
Show me your face so I can ask
Why must it be like this?

Happiness is leaving me with every passing day
As the knife sinks in my chest
My heart knows only how to survive
As I take my last breath

I pray to the God I know does not exist
He's the only one left before I start
To let my anger tear me apart

I prayed a thousand times cause I'm
Left without a clue
Dreaming of happiness while the nightmare continues
So now I ask why?
For what reason do I gotta feel this way?
I guess one thousand times more do
I gotta pay